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Sunday, March 23, 2008

I still rememeber that time you mentioned to me how your father was like. I can still see this "agnoist" face within you whenever you talk about your father, gives me the impression that you're about to murder someone. Not wanting to jump to any conclusions about you. I shalln't say anything.

Being able to put up to something/someone that long is unbearable. But after all. Whos the one that gave you life? Your parents. Yes, you may say that its your mother. But your father also contributed to the pain and suffering to bring this family up. Just like my family. Too think that the "main" breadwinners of the family, they have really gone through alot. Sure they may be biased against something/someone, but what are the odds? Unless you're the only son/daugther in the family, everything's baised the way you look at it. Somettimes how much you envy other family, how loving they are. Almost every minute your parents will be wondering how do they make this a better place for you, how would they come up with their money first and not to let you touch your savings whenever you're about to, as that is your ticket in the future.

Lemme share something. I was also biased. In a sense that many would think that i came from a golden spoon family. No i dont. I'm happy being in a average family. But sometimes my parents too can be biased towards my elder sister. She has everything, literally. And now she going to be overseas studying in a centralised university. Earlier on, i though that this will create the ONLY ME AND ME situation for my family. guess what. They insist on going there for least a month to make sure she has proper lodgings b4 deciding to come back. KEYWORD : DECIDING. No its not biased, no its not one sided. Its just plain DREADED. oh well. I still have to live with it. Its my only choice now.

One of these days, your father will be regretful of what he has done to you. One of these days he will seek forgiveness from you and your mother. One of these days the family will be all-loving again. But All these will not be true if you are not prepared to forgive and forget. WIll you have the heart to forgive if your father does so?

And one more thing. It doesnt matter how much I want to be with you. Its how much you want your future to be. Then again, i dont want to jump to conclusions again.

Anyway........ This road i have travelled with you,
I have dropped quite alot of crumps from the bread i'm holding on to, hoping that you could follow.
All seems to be to no avail....

P.s the bread reads "i Love u"